Not going to lie…Today is a tough one.

Last night was great; I had an hour and a half on a Zoom call with 3 of my closest girlfriends. We live all over the country, and the last time we were all together was at my wedding, 4 years ago. Two years ago, two of them flew up from Florida for my baby shower, but since then, I have not seen their faces. Last fall, we had talked about doing a Skype date, or something similar, but never followed through. With everything that is going on, we made sure to prioritize a group call. We laughed, boy did we laugh, over stupid stuff. The three of us with kids showed off our kids as they would wander over and try to see what was going on, who we were talking to. We got to see a sheriff deputy and several firemen and fire trucks when one of was told she had to evacuate her apartment, then she didn’t have to, then she just said “screw it, I’m staying here.” But most of all, we got that quality facetime and connection we all so desperately need.

I am an introvert, I do not deny it, and I love it. However, even for me, today is difficult. I don’t know if it’s because I had such great social interaction last night (albeit over the internet), or what. Little Man has just been off this morning, extra clingy and wanting to nurse all the time (he’s also been drooling like crazy, so I’m sure he’s got a tooth trying to break through), and it takes a lot out of me to be “on” all the time for him. It’s really cold, windy, and rainy, so we have not gone outside at all today. Yesterday, we did two ATV rides and a walk; today we have not done any of that.

I do look at the positives: Great Aunt Squad call last night! I took a shower this morning; first time since Little Man was itty bitty that I’ve taken a shower without someone else to keep an eye on him (I turned on Muppet Babies on the tv and left the bathroom door open for him so he could come in if he needed me), and it felt glorious. My parents are supposed to be coming up this afternoon, and I’m hoping they do get her soon, so that I have someone to talk to, other than Little Man. I’m planning on potty training this week, and my parents are bringing his potty up with them (I completely forgot to put it in the car when we packed up to make the trip on Wednesday. D’oh!). And, I have this blog as an outlet to let my feeling free. It does help to get thing out, whether it’s talking to someone about them or journaling them; get those negative thoughts out of your mind!